an attempt at happiness? no...we're not that intelligent.

I find the female mind to be completely absurd in all facets. And I say this strictly because I am a female myself. My heart and soul seems to be completely devoted to the wrong thing...well more like the wrong group of people.

I told myself that I would never write anything that even has the slightest relation to love or a strong "like" on my blog...but I can't help it. I'm that pathetic.

Females seem to always be attracted to the "wrong guy." You know, the guy that has all the friends, the guy that sweet talks you for a good week or two and then suddenly your going out, that guy that breaks your helpless adolescent heart into tiny, microscopic pieces? That guy. And its the same guy you always fall for. And quite frankly, it sucks.

It's sorta funny too. Because for some odd reason, we think that being bombarded with crap from our so-called lover is what leads to our personal happiness.

It's a fake sense of the word "happy." We think we're happy because we have the attractive guy, the guy that every girl wants. We feel proud, popular, and most of all, empowered.

This "empowerment" is also a fake feeling. We feel strong and full of life. But don't become easily persuaded, it's only a front. We're not happy. We're miserable.

Why?

Well, it's a commonality in these types of relationships that the guy is very flirtatious, cheats excessively, and treats the girl terribly. The girl has unfortunately convinced herself that he indeed loves her and is just exhibiting stubbornness.

Stubbornness? Temporary? Nope. Permanent.

A permanent stubbornness. Can we really handle that? Apparently, we can, because we stick with the guy with high hopes that he might, possibly change.

Suddenly, a streak of niceness! The guy becomes nice, respectful, thoughtful. Maybe the girl was right. Maybe he was just going through a phase...

Then, the absurd occurs.
He wants the worse from you. And we all know what this thing is.

What is a girl to do? He claims that if you love him, you will. But do you love him?

No, you don't. Love is a word that tends to be tossed around lightly in this generation. But the word "love" is a strong word. To make that claim is basically signing your personal sentence.

Let's analyze this situation...he's treated you like crap, flirted and cheated with other girls, and went through a "stubborn" phase.

Now...do you love him?

No, I didn't think so.

Girls need to be more thoughtful and less nonsensical. They need to learn how to not let a fake sense of love mask their common sense.

I've had many experiences in which I've been blinded by a strong like. I thought it was the best feeling in the world, but I gained sense, and got out of any situation that would possibly jeopardize my future.

I just hope that girls like me will realize that their happiness is tainted by a false sense of the word "love" and by some hormonal guy that has absolutely no life.

And please, let's gain some intelligence here.

i refuse to tolerate your stupidity.

I truly despise stupid people. Well, not necessarily stupid people, just people who act stupid, simply because they lack a certain capability to gain attention from others in a way that doesn't require them to force themselves upon stupid behavior.

This stupidity should probably be renamed into a word that is a tad bit more sophisticated. How about...ignorance? Yes, ignorance. A hideous word. A perfect word for describing the people who live with this "ignorant" mentality. I tend to talk about all the things I hate on this not so thriving blog of mine, and I continue on rampage of what's wrong with this horrific life...so, with that, I give you, another heartfelt rampage on ignorance.

For six weeks out of my super long summer, I will be attending a summer program that is designed to streghnthen high schoolers skills in math and the sciences. I originally wasn't to fond of the idea because one, it six freakin' weeks long, and two, science and math aren't really my most favorite subjects. I prefer to write...duh.

Even though I argued and pleaded with my mom to let me do something that I would actually enjoy this summer, instead of ruining my life, she insisted that I do the program with high hopes of becoming even more profficient in math and science.

I, without an option, "happily" attended the program.

This is my second week.

And the ignorance of some people is certainly astounding.

I don't know what it is with adolescents, but for some odd reason, they like to act completely stupid at the wrong times, without considering the feelings and thoughts of others.

I mean, even by the end of the first week, ignorance led certain members of the program to post insults about people on Twitter.

What was the motive? Certainly, I have no idea. But I'm forced to accept their ignorance, tolerate it, and laugh along with it, just so they can achieve some sort of high satisfaction.

Forget this "forced action." I refuse to tolerate it or standby it in anyway. It's dumb and profound, and I truly hope that they learn to get over themselves.

It's as if their unaware of their stupidity. To me, that's the worst part. To be unaware of your most OBVIOUS ignorance is probably worse than being ignorant in the first place. I pray that they find sense in their liquified brains and they learn to use their intelligence to their advantage rather than their ignorance just for social satisfaction.

Society doesn't help it either. As I said before, we tolerate it, just in hope to be accepted by the vast majority.

That's bull crap. To even tolerate something that can be even the mildest form of insult is not okay.

We need to learn to stand up for ourselves and be assertive. Pacifists don't always make it in the world.

So, all you ignorant people, I hope you understand the jist of what I'm trying to communicate. Please take my words of advice, and learn from the idiotic society we face today.

paranoia in b-flat major.

Paranoia is a disease.

It's a puss infused bacterial infection. It's in desperate need of some severe antibiotics.

It's disgusting. Annoying. Grotesque. Despicable. But not as despicable as "Despicable Me." You know? The kids movie with Steve Carell? That was a horrendous movie. I mean, first of all, what little kid knows what "despicable" means? Are we trying to teach our young ones to be like super geniuses?

Anyway, back on topic...paranoia. A terrible thing. And I have to live with it everyday.

I'm an incredibly paranoid person.

Paranoia is defined as a "baseless or excessive suspicion of the motives of others." Yes. I have suspicions. I suspect the motives of others. I suspect the motives of others who mean a lot to me.
And yes, I am excessively suspicious of those "others."

I feel like I'm not the only one who has to face this intolerable facet to life. Everyone has some form of paranoia. Even if its the slightest form of paranoia possible, it's still there.

How are we to live with this painful disease? Honestly, I have no idea.

I try to rid myself of any form of jealousy, of any form of personal torture I put upon myself simply because I am jealous, and, of course, the constant worry that someone you care about is going to destroy your trust immensely.

I guess having trust issues is probably the biggest reason from anyone to even exhibit the slightest amount of paranoia. And its sad that paranoia is probably most derived from relationships.

I can relate to this myself.

I told myself that I would never get in a relationship simply because I was always constantly hurt. Not even in like the pathetic...like "OMG, he said he didn't like me anymore....boohoohooo." Ugh. Shut up.

I was hurt in the "I'm going to take advantage of you" way.

So, of course, being in any type of relationship is going to take a giant toll on my emotional and mental state. With this fact, paranoia is bound to occur...leaving me to be highly insecure and unnecessarily emotional.

Paranoia is not something that can be completely dissolved. We have to live with it and its not something that can necessarily escape from the human mind. I honestly do not have a solution for this one my dear friends. All I can say is that we have to live with it and desperately try to not let it get the best of us. It will be hard to do.

But its better than nothing.